tag:elycetyler.com,2005:/blogs/thought-and-song-and-vision?p=3Word, Mind, and Deed2024-03-02T14:12:29-08:00Elyce Tylerfalsetag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/73607242024-03-02T14:12:29-08:002024-03-08T20:54:58-08:00Song Lyrics: CYCLE THRU<div class="page" title="Page 9"><div class="section" style="background-color:rgb(100.000000%, 100.000000%, 100.000000%);"><div class="layoutArea"><div class="column">
<p><strong>CYCLE THRU </strong></p>
<p><strong>V1 </strong>Hey,<span> you got a little too used to treating me like some shabby little maid that lives with you. </span><br><span>You let her kiss your feet, and bring you something good to eat. Well, I </span><br><span>think you got a little too used to it, Yeah, I</span><br><span>think you got a little too used to it.</span></p>
<p><strong>Ch </strong>N<span>ow I’m gonna watch you cycle through the few options you have left </span><br><span>Gonna watch you realize we’re through and you’re no longer my cherished. </span><br><span>Now I’m gonna watch you cycle through the few options you have left</span><br><span>Gonna watch you realize we’re through and I’m no longer beholden to you.</span></p>
<p><strong>V2 </strong><span>First you try to apologize, but I can see behind those lies </span><br><span>They’re just words on a screen, they’re not really what you mean </span><br><span>First you try to apologize,</span><br><span>So you can say “See how I tried to apologize?”</span></p>
<p><strong>Ch</strong></p>
<p><strong>V3 </strong><span>Sure ‘nuff, now you’re tryna intimidate, you fully unveil that hate</span><br><span>Tear off the mask, show the monster underneath, but you’ve broken all your teeth. </span><br><span>And you’re not that scary </span><br><span>Just the demons you let inhabit you, I shudder to think at the power they have over you, over you.</span></p>
<p><strong>Ch</strong></p>
<p><strong>V4 </strong><span>Knowing you like I do, now; Now you’ve lost the power to fool me </span><br><span>Let me guess what your next step will be, Ah, that’s right, it’s gonna be to blame me</span><br>You'll be alright, I'm sure you'll<span> find a way to blame me.</span></p>
<p><strong>Ch </strong><span>‘Cause that’s what happens when you cycle through the few options you have left </span><br><span>When you realize we’re through and you’re no longer my cherished.</span><br><span>That’s what happens when you cycle through the few options you have left</span><br><span>When you realize we’re through and I’m no longer beholden</span><br><span>No, I’m no longer beholden to you.</span></p>
</div></div></div></div>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/71115262022-11-27T14:37:34-08:002024-01-24T11:18:04-08:00503 Uncorked<p>I recently had the joy and honor of being included in a Songwriters in the Round evening at 503 Uncorked in Sherwood, Oregon. The format was unlike anything I had done before. Three songwriters shared the stage and sang their songs, each in turn.</p>
<p>When it was one of my fellow musician's turn to sing, from my place on stage, I was also a member of the audience. It was a strange feeling. As I sat on stage and listened to the songwriters on either side of me, I was filled with such awe and gratitude of what a privilege and a blessing it is to spend this life as a performing musician. To share a stage with others who process the ups and downs of life through songwriting. I would look out at the audience, of which I was also a part, and connect with them in a completely different way than when I am the performer. And then, in no time, it was my turn to perform again, and again, I felt a soul-nourishing gratitude at this willing and attentive audience, giving themselves to my songs, connecting with them.</p>
<p>I walked away from the evening light in my step, knowing that one thing I truly love in life is being a musician.</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65714372021-03-11T18:40:42-08:002024-01-24T11:18:04-08:00Climate Refugee: Day 28 <p>I know, nice life for a "refugee." But still, I'd rather be at home and back in my studio! Every day from our fourth story hotel room (which for some reason keeps making me dizzy), this is what I see:</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/6f93faef45cf13d04c59f32dc9dbbb648804c765/original/img-2035.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Around day 3, this sight felt like a sign of encouragement. By day 10 (at which point I was already accidentally referring to my hotel room as my "apartment"), it struck me as ironic. Now, 28 days in to this hotel room stay, I am finally able to look out at this sign and know it is true. I most likely have this weekend left to go, but the hotel days are numbered!</p>
<p>September 2020 it was unprecedented forest fires that threatened our home and forced us out for over a week. February 2021 it was an ice storm. What will the next extreme weather event be for Oregon, my home, sweet home?</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677412021-03-06T20:30:00-08:002021-11-04T09:05:48-07:00AIP in a hotel - new set of meal photos<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/400a10f97b6744fbd139637f60b3ac7b35b33fb4/original/img-1747.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />The <a contents="AIP diet" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.thepaleomom.com">AIP diet</a> from my hotel room goes on. I can't do the diet properly from here. I'm supposed to be eating kidney and liver and other "offal," but I need an actual kitchen to prepare those things right, and more fridge space for the defrosting, since grass-fed offal meat is usually found, if at all, frozen.</p>
<p>I'll be seeing a new second doctor tomorrow (wonder what we'll call him in this blog) who should be able to give me personalized diet advice. I am feeling weaker, tireder, and in more pain than ever. Is it a coincidence, or is it just that the autoimmune disease is starting to work its magic? Maybe all this stress (manage it, though I try) is causing it to worsen? Or could it be that this diet I'm on is not working for me? I have had extremely itchy eyes the entire time; what could be the allergen behind that? Maybe something I'm still eating? Maybe the industrial strength hotel cleaning products?</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/d8477ddb4729c4238ddb10187c6e00b28eb5704a/original/img-1859.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Pictured above is Dragon's Tongue stems, red onions, and garlic. Once the stems were soft, I added the Dragon's Tongue greens and covered with an inverted pie tin. Served with fresh salad, below, including some raw Dragon's Tongue, and steak:</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/1cc4f646f4ad1ae8d8f15618cce2e5b16a105a5c/original/img-1863.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />The weirdest thing though... This was my second attempt today to eat a steak. I literally couldn't chew or swallow the first one. I figured it had to be something wrong with how it was cooked, but on the second attempt, I experienced the same exact problem. Is it me? How much might I be harming my gut microbiome with this diet? Were any of my helper bacteria relying on a food source that I cut out? I've been reading <a contents="I Contain Multitudes" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/27213168-i-contain-multitudes" target="_blank">I Contain Multitudes</a>; really eye-opening about the many delicate balances in our bodies, and especially our guts. I am really so glad I'll be talking to a new doctor tomorrow. I want to heal!!</p>
<p>#microbiome #dragonstongue #paleomom #lupus #autoimmune #icontainmultitudes</p>
<p> </p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677282021-02-28T10:00:00-08:002022-05-08T10:27:58-07:00Invictus Take 2<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/b384df041f3421e198182b4ecabe86ec8eb64ee4/original/63616632483-ee22437f-81cc-44cf-8ce7-1614e813723b.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />One week later, my stalwart friends trekked back out to the boat on the hillside. We corrected all the mistakes from last time, but got heaping plates full of new lessons in take 2. I'll do what I can with what we got, but this video may end up being a few stills instead. Huge thanks to Rickie Birran with <a contents="Man of Words Theater Company" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://manofwordstheatre.com/about/" target="_blank">Man of Words Theater Company</a> for inviting me to collaborate on this project!<img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/3d2461d74ddec07af21e94c3e13d246adeee3e0d/original/63616628399-2325c5b0-e54e-4e7d-8b43-9d9b3bd9be6d.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />#manofwords #invictus #poetry #dantesinferno #beatrice #rollyourboat</p>
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<p> </p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677252021-02-24T20:00:00-08:002022-05-30T01:27:40-07:00AIP in a hotel<p>So a couple things about the <a contents="AIP diet" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.thepaleomom.com/start-here/the-autoimmune-protocol/" style="" target="_blank">AIP diet</a> that make it impossible for me to eat out -- no vegetable/seed oils allowed, and no pepper or spices. I have found one amazing restaurant near the hotel (<a contents="El Ranchero" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.elrancheromarket.com/" target="_blank">El Ranchero</a>) that has been really a godsend during this time, letting me order entirely off menu and cooking my dishes with olive oil and no spices. But mostly, I've been using my InstaPot, my food processor, the hotel microwave and our friend's electric griddle to make my food here in the hotel room. I picked a fine time to get diagnosed with lupus!</p>
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<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/f21c49e2a05d902040f39c46f3baf0a5275d91cd/original/img-1441.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/1c0e7f8caa58616a0001d0ea98659ac69c638adb/original/img-1438.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>#AIP #aip-protocol #sarahballantyne #thepaleomom #foodismedicine #healwithfood</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677172021-02-21T11:00:00-08:002021-08-21T02:35:13-07:00Life goes on; shooting video for Invictus<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/eb7effb285fd4121c94ae7a585a184767f0b45b2/original/img-0646.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Lots of planning culminated in a video shoot yesterday that was still short on planning. Only way to truly learn what you don't know is to try something and fail! Racking up the lessons learned. While most of yesterday's lessons were about making a video, I got some equally important lessons in resilience. We'll try it again soon.</p>
<p>Friends who will trek up the long, steep hill with me...</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/19882a56299fc6624f51d81271c197bf48b3e8ae/original/img-0628.jpg/!!/undefined/b:W1sic2l6ZSIsImxhcmdlIl1d.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_none" alt="" /></p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/e4a51d141005bd87b7de4d9eabbf796c849aea10/original/img-1424.png/!!/b:W10=.png" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677152021-02-19T18:00:00-08:002021-08-09T04:33:31-07:00Pretty nice life, for a climate refugee<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/f0f0f8542944ec669e48a4f45cf43b9774b3b2b4/original/img-1961.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Today I got to enjoy my Christmas present to myself - this facial. It had been rescheduled due to a large hematoma from my sweet, precious wild child accidentally sinking her tooth into my head! Maybe some video from this trip will make it into a music video for Born is the New (Me)! #bornisthenew #selfcare #allthetimeintheworld #<a contents="chrystalclear" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://chrystalclearaesthetics.com/" target="_blank">chrystalclear</a></p>
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<p> </p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677112021-02-16T20:00:00-08:002021-03-07T20:44:54-08:00Ice Storm 2021 - Displaced from home<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/4a3d787a8b468056eb692f6344496bcaa979bf57/original/img-0473.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />The heaviest ice storm in at least many decades hit the Willamette Valley in February 2021. My parents remember having ice storms most years. Said the ice would cull the trees' branches, but without any heavy ice in so long, these massive oaks have not been culled. The one down in this photo fell at 12:30 p.m. on February 12th. Two hours later, after patching the water line that broke with the roots coming up, my Dad, daughter and I stood and watched the tree behind it fall.</p>
<p>That night, we slept in the basement to stay safe from trees. No power, so we cooked on the campstove and played games by candle and flashlight. Over the night, the tree in the foreground also fell, and uprooted the water again, along with all the other utilities. At 7 a.m., my godsend neighbor knocked on the door to let us know we now had a natural gas leak. Sure enough, once I'd come back to the basement with freshly cleared nostrils, I smelled the gas in the basement. We stayed with my folks for a couple nights, but they also had no power. Insurance put me and the girls up in a hotel.</p>
<p>The sweet girl in this photo is my daughter's friend - stopped by a few days later to see how we'd fared through the storm.</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/036e08d64e4d82fe2a9855dd56d86040dfc58b2b/original/img-0501.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677052021-02-05T18:00:00-08:002021-03-07T20:11:49-08:00AIP - Beef ribs w/ cooked veggies and raddish greens, side of yam<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/9c3c9780375afd5b3a9c9573d25b303962a63f15/original/img-0470.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />Welcoming yam into my meal! This should give me some energy.</p>
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<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/d36d1947b7031a614e5da04c124bd0bd5bc95d35/original/img-0464.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/a9eecfc8684d555048e7f0dfde7f85c837eb5918/original/img-0468.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65676952021-02-05T10:10:00-08:002021-03-07T19:59:09-08:00AIP - Keto CRASH<p>Two days in on keto, and I am feeling exhausted. I stepped on the scale and found I've dropped 9 pounds! I have been trying to gain weight, not lose it! I'm getting myself some blueberries!!</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65677062021-02-04T20:00:00-08:002021-07-24T08:52:06-07:00AIP - Keto dinner - Chicken thighs w/ cauliflower rice, radishes, and green sauce - AMAZING<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/1820c3de7a970594157ea329453cb5edbed97c7f/original/img-0378.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>This was amazing!! I will definitely make it again! Thank you, <a contents="Castaway Kitchen" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://thecastawaykitchen.com/2018/01/sheet-pan-taco-bowls-whole30-aip-keto-paleo/" target="_blank">Castaway Kitchen</a>!</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/3b393ff4f84e898dc113f6b58c1bee2425146456/original/img-0376.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65676892021-02-01T21:00:00-08:002021-03-07T19:43:38-08:00AIP - Refried Butternut Squash and marinated salad w/ chicken<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/68d5e84b38125f544045dfadee15fe33d668c10c/original/img-0354.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />OK, so yeah, it actually looks yummy. But I also want a carb!! 😫 </p>
<p>...and one ravenous bite after the next later: That was so good, I didn’t want it to end! After each bite, I gave thanks that there was still another... until it was gone, and then I gave thanks for how delicious it had been. </p>
<p>It was good, I’m going to bother to log what it was and how to put it together: </p>
<p>- Half a head Romaine lettuce (Note, I would not chop it into such small pieces next time; hard to get on the fork) <br>- A bunch of kalamata olive<br>- Half a can of marinated artichoke hearts, chopped <br>- Cold leftover chicken - mostly leg meat (some pieces got unintentionally seasoned with a balsamic vinaigrette left on the plate where I had set the chopped chicken aside - those pieces were little flavor bonuses) <br>- Simple vinaigrette dressing: avocado oil, red wine vinegar, crushed garlic, and sea salt (pink salt woulda been better) <br>- Butternut squash (pre-roasted, then fried with onion; re-heated in pot, added umami shiitake powder and fresh chopped parsley and cilantro (LOVED combining those two!) </p>
<p>That was it. Easy, and I’m full. Do I feel satisfied? Well, I don’t feel like reaching for the corn chips anymore, but within five minutes or so of finishing my dinner, I was craving chocolate. Now I’m craving a glass of red wine. I had been giving my body treats all day long - morning coffee, afternoon chocolate, evening wine. I still want a treat of some sort!</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65676652021-02-01T15:00:00-08:002021-03-07T19:09:32-08:00Deciding to do AIP<p>I set out to research the “<a contents="True Cellular Detox" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://truecellulardetox.com/" target="_blank">True Cellular Detox</a>” supplements that my newer doctor (let’s call him Dr. Detox) had recommended for me, but all I can find online are advertisements on dozens of independent alternative doctors’ websites. On the box and the manufacturer’s webpage, the company claims that the supplements were developed based on decades of studies and research, but there isn’t a single citation to be found. I emailed Dr. Detox to ask for more information; I received what appeared to be a template response about alternative medicine not having the resources to conduct the kind of scientific studies that traditional medicine does. At my follow-up visit, I asked Dr. Detox what gave him confidence in the True Cellular Detox supplements, and the most concrete answer I gathered was that he visited the factory, and they test the water there for purity every day. That’s great, I’m thinking, but doesn’t tell me much about whether the supplements work for Lupus. Dr. Detox gave me a contact name at True Cellular Detox and encouraged me to call them for more information about the research and studies; he himself did not have any such information.</p>
<p>Dr. Detox had told me that a “leaky gut“ was the cause of my disease. (My previous doctor — we’ll call her “Dr. PA” — had not thought much of this hypothesis.) I asked Dr. Detox for more dietary guidance. I had already removed dairy, wheat and sugar from my diet months ago. The doctor said to keep with what I’m doing, but make 3-4 days a week keto, followed by a couple days with carbs, followed by a fasting day. </p>
<p>I’m defying doctor’s orders, because after the appointment, I discovered the AIP (auto-immune protocol) diet online, and I’m going to try it. I will combine AIP with keto for the first four days, though, so that part is matching doctor's orders!</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65676642021-01-25T18:00:00-08:002021-03-07T19:01:55-08:00Mystery Solved?<p>I started seeing another doctor in December, determined that 2021 would be the year I finally get a handle on my chronic pain. A half-dozen vials of my deep burgundy blood were sent to the lab and a week later, back in the doctor’s office, my results were revealed. The doctor clicked through page after page of perfect, green-coded results, then clicked again. On this screen, standing out like a flashing light, was a red-coded “high” result for anti-dsDNA. </p>
<p>“Lupus,” the doctor said, helpfully. He sold me box one of the 6-month “cell detox” supplement program that was his recommended treatment (#TrueCellularDetox). </p>
<p>Taking the same lab results to my existing doctor, she said while it will take time and more tests to verify, it does look like lupus. Whether the “cell detox” could do me any good, she looked over every ingredient and responded, “I don’t see anything that can hurt you. I also don’t see anything in here that could help.” </p>
<p>So do I have lupus? What does my “gut” tell me? Probably. I told my kids last weekend. Now I can tell the whole wide world.</p>Elyce Tylertag:elycetyler.com,2005:Post/65299262021-01-25T07:13:10-08:002021-01-25T08:58:17-08:00My new love of books<p>In Brave New World, people do not read books. Is it because they have been forbidden?; or simply b/c books can't compete with the all-sense-gratifying ("sensorious"?) entertainment of that world? Movies there are posh events held in pristine, surround-vision theaters. They include a sort of "fragrance soundtrack." There occur group orgasms in the rapture of an especially good sex scene. -- What now about a book?</p>
<p>I began to read in earnest last year (2020), and “hooked” would be the outcome put mildly. As spake the Elder Zosima in The Brothers Karamazov, it’s as if these books had been awaiting me: “for the day and the hour, and the month and the year.” If I'd tried embarking on this reading adventure earlier, younger me could not have understood; these works found me at the moment I was ready - nay, in need! Books have become my most cherished companions; their authors, my wise mentors. I feel a kinship with them that crosses the divide of time. <img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/511419/caaf326ef2a11dcc6b971440fd9e416dfbb87130/original/father-zosima.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>To think that the classics today, in our lucky, free society, are not at all off-limits; yet they may as well be, for as much as they are read. They are not forbidden, in spite of the power they possess to whisper age-old truths across the expanse of time, and even to prophesy! Across the chasm of death, a bridge! To think of the wisdom at our fingertips, if we will turn the page and read.</p>Elyce Tyler